Trying to find the moments to cherish

I have lost sight.
I am crumbling.
I can not find my footing.

Calvin has probably been trying to reach out...but I don't get it...I don't understand it...I don't know how to see him and love him.
Lately he has been telling me
 he hates me
all the time, and
"I'll punch you in the face"

He has been lying SOOO much and I simply do not know what to do.
I broke down today, and Calvin yells at me,
"You know what you should do Mom?  You shouldn't have married Lyle!"
(Me: "What does that have to do with it?")
"Because I want a different Mom!  When I get married, I am going to pick a GOOD Mom!"

Mom of the year award...I feel great